I wish he knew how much she cares , how much she loved his imperfections , loved the way he made her nervous , wished he called when she feels down .. small words from him would turn things around .. wishing he would clean out the road so she can make one last choice .. rather that just standing at the cross road wondering how much she will regret not going on the other one .. remembering all the things people in love said about how painful waiting can be .. never thinking she will be on that side . loving him much to let him go seemed like the song .. not the reality that she can actually do , lying to her self that he's finally out of her mind ..
As much as she was taken off with the ideas of flying marshmallows dreams that he stupidly shared it with a sunken heart from sweetness , promising her with life ..
Parents always said that sweet will do no good , never to realize that they were talking about all sweet stuff . sweet devils teeth !! 

Why so sad !!

 Yesterday I attended an event in my university , and honestly it was well done by the student , and the cause was something not given the interest it should have . the campaign was named " why your sad " they went around the university asking people why are you grumpy .. trying to find a reasonable answer so they can give solutions !! It is given as granted that Jordanian people are always grumpy .. it is a part of our culture .. but the truth is ... most people just don't really understand what makes them happy .. it's not sitting around waiting for miracles .. or complaining about mistakes people do , that you your self do them .. not about bossing around waiting for people to accomplish your dreams .. Happiness is when you work out a miracle .. miracles to people who need it , happiness is when you start the change .. and stop preaching people with words - though it can be so powerful if lined well - but with goodness that you show them and give them , it's about inspiring other to be happy .. successful .. honest .. We watched stand up comedy and many others activities that made us laugh . but people forget that once they walk from the doors .. it wasn't enough to change our daily perspective .. to change how we take things . and control our reactions !! The process to that isn't exactly a picnic .. but we can at least try .. Spread words of Joy . happiness .. you never know when you might change someone's entire day .

 “Would you like to save the world from the degradation and destruction it seems destined for? Then step away from shallow mass movements and quietly go to work on your own self-awareness. If you want to awaken all of humanity, then awaken all of yourself. If you want to eliminate the suffering in the world, then eliminate all that is dark and negative in yourself. Truly, the greatest gift you have to give is that of your own self-transformation.”  ~Lao Tzu